hope I can see him today. I miss him so much even though I saw him for a bit yesterday jdsiewyqwtwedfnsdsued
There so many stigmas attached with people who have Bi Polar Disorder, mainly because it is not understood and a lot of people simply don’t really know what it is. So if you’re one of my close friends or a loved one, I ask that you take just a few moments out of your day to read this just so you gain a better understanding of my disorder, thank you. Love you all.
BPD often sends doctors running for cover.
This is because BPD has quite the reputation and many negative conatations. I think awareness and understanding is slowing getting better but BPD is still misunderstood and has a lot of stigma attached.
We are known as manipulative, unpredictable, implusive, over emotional attenion seekers and in some ways we can be.
People with BPD are often in a lot of emotional pain and turmoil and use self-damaging ways to deal with this. These coping mechaninsms such as self harm, promiscuous sex, drug use, alcohol abuse, eating disorders etc etc have negative conatations in and of themselves.
Then boderlines are often difficult to get on with, we desperatly seek intamacy and a way to take away our emptyness and pain but we often can’t stand anyone getting too close so we push people away. We often want to abandon them before they abandon us. Why should we work with our doctors or even loved ones if they will one day leave us? On Monday we feel they know us so well and actually care but on Friday we feel they despise and hate us, so we in turn hate them. We only think in these very black or white, love or hate terms.
Our relationships in general are very intense messy. We often get involved in abusive and dangerous relationships just to add to our issues…
When we feel we are going to be abandoned or life gets too much suicide often feels like the only way out. This is very difficult for others to deal with.
Borderlines lack an identity and therefore if we don’t understand ourselves, how can anyone else? We change our minds - A LOT. We have no sense of self, of who we are and what we like or want. We are extremely impulsive.
We can get very angry and difficult to deal with, often seemingly without warning. All our emotions are like this… They are intense and unstable. At a drop of a hat we can become distraught and suicidcal but then mere hours feel differently.
When under stress someone with BPD can become very paranoid and have psychotic symptoms. Then sometimes we just check out all together and cannot connect to the world. The pain is so much we have to dissociate.
People with BPD often have other co-morid disorders too. Borderlines are such a mix of closely intertwined issues it is often hard to know where to begin. I have barely scratched the surface on BPD and the many reasons it has such a bad reputation but I think that we are walking paradoxes and a walking paradox is quite something.
ugh i dnt feel good and im lonely and I miss boyfriend and I cant watch spirited away and ugh boyfriend WHERE R U im dying
